.Living la Vita Sana.

Vita Sana is Italian for "Living Healthy". This blog is going to serve as a place for me to share my experiences with living healthy. As of right now I don't lead a healthy lifestyle. I have adopted a few healthy habits along my journey like switching to low fat milk and switching to whole wheat bread but that doesn't hide the fact that I eat well over 2,000 calories a day. I have an array of bad habits and a distaste for vegetables. I also use food as a coping mechanism. Happy or sad, food is my comfort. I had hoped that my thyroid was to blame but blood work ruled that out and I have now concluded that this is ultimately in my hands. I am the sum of all my steps and this is going to take a huge effort. I admit here and now that I have no one else but to blame for my weight gain but myself. Everything that happened in the past to catapult me to my 180 pounds is irrelevant to where I stand today. Sure, it played a factor but ultimately it is my everyday decisions that will lead me to where I want to go. My weight loss is going to be founded on the countless "healthy" decisions I make as well as the very unhealthy decisions. Right now, the scale is tipped to a very unhealthy lifestyle. The mission now is to balance it out and eventually tip it to healthy where it belongs.

Now I will say that my weight is my body guard. It is my shield. I don't have to deal with men and their advances. I don't have to worry about standing out. I use my weight to hide. Despite my weight, I have stood out and have even received the unwanted attention I was hiding from. In other words, while I use the excuse of hiding behind my weight I shine right through it and it's time I act like a big girl, rather, an adult and face this world living a healthy life style and if I stand out, so what? It's time to stop being so afraid. Fear is going to get me no where.

Most importantly, my health needs and will become a priority in my life. I'm not looking to be a stick thin girl. Not at all. God gave me curves and I love them all. I want to rush out of obesity, run through overweight, and slide right into healthy. I'm tired of being told I'd be prettier if I would just loose weight. I am sick of wanting to wear really cute clothes and having to worry that my pants look funny or that my shirt has to cover my belly. I want to wake up in the morning and not have to worry about coordinating my outfits according to my weight. I want to wear a hot bikini one day and shorts and tucked in shirts.

There is no doubt that I love me. My family can attest that I love myself. No one else I know .. buys themselves flowers, tells herself she rocks or writes herself I love you all over her mirror. I am such a positive person. I love my life and take pride in everything that I do. However, I need to do better. It isn't enough to do these acts when I'm not doing what is really important.

So I'm ready to do this .. ready to live la Vita Sana.