This is where I'm at.

So ... today I wanted to eat everything in my apartment and I mean EVERYTHING!! To be fair to myself, it's a week before Aunt Flow visits so I'm usually like hungry hungry hippo. At the same time .. I get very sleepy and very blah so the idea of working out is pretty much like .. eff it. However, I have been on the P90X for 15 days now and while I'm not loosing crazy weight .. I've been dropping inches and I have been feeling great.

I had been working out everyday and in the last week I've needed breaks in between days and I really want to work out but the not wanting to wins out more. Now I know that I tend to quit my diets after 2 weeks ... and amazingly I have stuck through this for a month now. In fact next Monday it will be one whole month and I've lost 3 pounds. Not too shabby.

I realize that this is a life style change and unfortunately I use food to ease just about every emotion. Life is good right now but this week .. this particular week always shakes me up. Will I still be standing afterwards? I've stayed it in it .. longer than I'm used to. I just don't want to do this cycle again where I see I screw up a little .. gain weight back and then say eff it. This time has to be different. It will be different.

Maybe it's "this week" that has me all .. I don't know.

I'll let you know how it goes.

Consistency.

If there is one thing I have learned about myself, it's that I am inconsistent. I will start a program and usually 2-3 weeks later I've quit. I get bored, or at least that's what I tell myself. I went home a few months ago and was really succesful with my eating habits and I lost 5 lbs. After 2 weeks .. I was back to my normal routine.

My latest program is p90X which I have know been doing .. wait .. let me see my calendar.... for 10 days. I have been dieting though for 3 weeks according to my fit book. I have to say .. having a goal of 90 days really helps although .. a few days ago .. I heard my "quitting" voice say .. aww you're tired just stop. I did. For one day and the next day I got right back in. I would love to say that in another 2 weeks I will still be going strong but I can't honestly tell you.

I really hope that I am. I hope that this time is different. I really love this program though :) I have lost 3 pounds so far and a couple inches all around so we'll see!

:)