This is where I'm at.

So ... today I wanted to eat everything in my apartment and I mean EVERYTHING!! To be fair to myself, it's a week before Aunt Flow visits so I'm usually like hungry hungry hippo. At the same time .. I get very sleepy and very blah so the idea of working out is pretty much like .. eff it. However, I have been on the P90X for 15 days now and while I'm not loosing crazy weight .. I've been dropping inches and I have been feeling great.

I had been working out everyday and in the last week I've needed breaks in between days and I really want to work out but the not wanting to wins out more. Now I know that I tend to quit my diets after 2 weeks ... and amazingly I have stuck through this for a month now. In fact next Monday it will be one whole month and I've lost 3 pounds. Not too shabby.

I realize that this is a life style change and unfortunately I use food to ease just about every emotion. Life is good right now but this week .. this particular week always shakes me up. Will I still be standing afterwards? I've stayed it in it .. longer than I'm used to. I just don't want to do this cycle again where I see I screw up a little .. gain weight back and then say eff it. This time has to be different. It will be different.

Maybe it's "this week" that has me all .. I don't know.

I'll let you know how it goes.

Consistency.

If there is one thing I have learned about myself, it's that I am inconsistent. I will start a program and usually 2-3 weeks later I've quit. I get bored, or at least that's what I tell myself. I went home a few months ago and was really succesful with my eating habits and I lost 5 lbs. After 2 weeks .. I was back to my normal routine.

My latest program is p90X which I have know been doing .. wait .. let me see my calendar.... for 10 days. I have been dieting though for 3 weeks according to my fit book. I have to say .. having a goal of 90 days really helps although .. a few days ago .. I heard my "quitting" voice say .. aww you're tired just stop. I did. For one day and the next day I got right back in. I would love to say that in another 2 weeks I will still be going strong but I can't honestly tell you.

I really hope that I am. I hope that this time is different. I really love this program though :) I have lost 3 pounds so far and a couple inches all around so we'll see!

:)

Tuesday

Breakfast:

Didn't have any. Woke up at noon.

Lunch:

Maccaroni and Cheese left overs and V8 Fusion.

Snack:
Left over rice not even a bowl
2 mini hesheys bars
1 cup of sherbert

I'm going home with the perfect recipe for my success

I gained 6 pounds. Yep, and so begins the yo-yo numbers on the scale. However, although I am dissapointed I'm not defeated because this time I can pin-point exactly when things shifted. After I lost the 5 pounds, I started to think I had this under control. I could guess-timate the calories in my head for my meals. I also allowed myself to eat my home cooked meals. While, my family cooked a lot healthier, my not calculating calories really wasn't a good idea because I went over my calorie intake. After I had hit 183, I went out with a couple friends and was faced with what to eat at Olive Garden and although they had healthy options, I opted for spaghetti with meatballs. I think that restaurant decisions is going to be a huge obstacle for me.In my mind I think that being out is a reason to go crazy with a meal but it's just as important as a meal at home or on my own. This eating healthy thing isn't just at home it's a new life style.

I want to be that girl every other girl is rolling her eyes at because she chooses the light salad and a water while her friends order the burgers and coke. This is the life I want for myself. I want to be a healthy eater. Sometime last week, I did get the craving to eat unhealthy .. well duh. I did eat Mc Donalds .. I opted for water and split the fries with my mom and just ate the chicken nuggets which were 400 calories. Bad? Yes. I decided to just do it since I knew that if I didn't, I would have sabotaged my diet later. I don't regret this decision. However, I know that my letting go of my rules after discovering I had lost 5 pounds played an important part in my gaining weight the next few days. I was eating out of control, when I was not hugry, not counting calories, and I had stopped drinking water consistently. I learned a lot these last 2 weeks. One thing I do know is that my eating right did work!

I stayed within 1,500 calories every day. I ate my own prepared meals in which I knew how many calories was in a particular food. I drank 64 oz of water or more. I walked for 30 minutes and was active. I kept moving when I knew I could.I kept a positive attitude. I had the support of my family.

I know I gained 5 pounds but I know EXACTLY what I need to do to loose them again and keep them off.

VITA SANA!!!

p.s. I want to do another 5K :)

My favorite commercial these days that inspires me to change my habits :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hfM0CkzL_-I

Holding on .. and thank God I did

Well ... I just weighed myself and I am at 183 :)

When I weighed myself earlier this week I had gained 2 pounds

Last Sunday for my check in, I was 187.5

So, I lost 4.5 pounds in 12 days.

Gotta keep chugging .. had I not gone to Publix to weigh myself and had seen my current weight I would have ruined all the effort I had put into the last week.

I need to stay strong even when I don't see results right away because I had no idea I had lost some pounds when I was about to give up.

I am SUPER proud of myself for how hard I have been working to eat healthy.

I have been drinking 60+ oz of water a day and really eating healthy.

Gotta stick to it :)

The only area I'm not doing well in is the excercise but slowly I'm going to start that up again.



Go Me!!

I gained 2 but I'm not giving up ...

Breakfast:
Banana Nut Cheerios 100
Non fat milk 90
Total: 190

Lunch:
Healthy Choice Penne Pasta 280
Water 0
Total 280

Total so far ... 470

I have 1030 left .. not too shabby

I need to walk today to burn some calories for sure!

Hanging out w/ friends and fanily .. and living la vita sana

Breakfast:
Frosted Flakes 101
Whole Milk 150
Total: 251

Lunch:
Bahama Breeze
Tomato Salad 90
Coconut Shrimp 500
Citrus Mustard 190
Total: 780

1031

Total left ... 469